So let’s go back a couple of weeks, I am laying on my back while scrolling through my phone. THYRST just hosted Scheana Shay from Vanderpump Rules in Toronto but we had to cancel our brunch due to COVID-19 (glad we did in retrospect). I was feeling a little drained and bummed about the whole situation. I’d been away from Los Angeles for a bit over a week now at my parents in Kleinburg. We started hearing rumblings of the Canada-USA border closing for non-essential travel which forced me to make a tough decision. Should I stay with my family not knowing when I would see my fiance next or leave my family and fly back to Los Angeles to be with David? We know how this ends, I am a hopeless romantic and couldn’t have my man living through this crisis alone. I know my parents would be okay because my three other siblings were at home so that gave me added comfort. This was a difficult decision mostly due to the change of countries. The way Canada and my Canadian friends have been handling this pandemic is the polar opposite to the way America and my American friends are handing it. If I had it my way, I would have David and the kids move back to Toronto until this ordeal is over but try telling a successful white privilege American man what to do…
It’s hard to write a blog post without complaining, I’m a millennial. It’s in my blood. There is so much to bitch about but so much to be grateful for so I have decided I am just content with where I am at. If you have WIFI and time to be reading this, chances are you should be content as well. There’s been a lot of reflection happening and a lot of it not by choice. It’s hard to really complain when people are dying without their family members next to them or that there are thousands of unclaimed bodies piling up. This is tough on everyone, it’s a fucking global pandemic.
I do feel as though I am having a full blown identity crisis. Quarantine has you thinking about things differently. It has me thinking about my life before this, my current state of life and what I want my life to be. So I am taking the time now to clean it all up. So instead of listing all of the things I miss (like my friends, going to the gym and seeing a drag queen slam their puss on the stage), I wanted to share some things that have been helping me prepare for life after this is over.
Clean Your Mind
Now is the best time to get into mediation. The power of this simple daily practice is a light that has pierced through blackness of fear & panic for me. It breathes a soft hum of zen into my world. I wish this calm zen was a virus we could infect humans with, humanity would truly thrive. If you are looking to get into mediation, I recommend the Headspace app. It’s the perfect app for beginners, you can start meditating 2 minutes a day and build up to longer mediation. Right now Deepak Chopra and Oprah have a mediation series on “Hope” that’s a 21 day challenge and it’s free! This is a longer form mediation but definitely gets you thinking and processing this whole nonsense differently.
Clean Your Circle
The lack of people around you makes you think about what type of people you want to surround yourself with after this is all done. I filled my world with people who just drained me and have a vortex of sucking the life out of the room and making it all about them and truly I don’t want that anymore. As a Cancer, I have some tendencies of being a soul sucking vampire and that’s something I want to change. I want people who breath a new life into me, people who uplift and fill my energy tank so I can do the same for them. This has also been a nice time to reconnect with people who you love and appreciate but have fallen off your radar. We all need the most virtual hugs we can get.
Clean Your Space
They say nothing inspires a clean home like an unexpected guests, but there are NO guests in in the Beebe Bunker except for Brownie Marie Kondo. I am gutting drawers and trying to organize our space, looking for things that spark joy. Crazy how now an old movie ticket seems to spark more joy that it did 3 months ago. I thought about cleaning out my closet but at the rate I am eating I don’t know what might fit me at the end of this whole mess so I suggest holding out on that. The quotes are endless, clean space = clean mind. Make a list of the spaces that collect clutter and pop an adderall and take a day to organize it or chip away at the list tackling once space a day.
This THOT’s Final Thoughts
The mind fuck of the whole experience is the world as we know it will never be the same. We can’t just bounce back into the way things were. It’s as though we’ve been transported to another planet and we have to figure out our new way of life. Who knows, we will probably have to get tested or show proof of vaccination before entering places and the anti-vaxxers are SHAKING. We’ll also have to fight the lingering fear in the air. We have to remember there is no cure for this virus and there is no immunity to future viruses humanity might face. Overall, this is a huge learning lesson for humanity.
There are many silver linings though. This is a reset. The most important reset happening is Mother Nature climbing out of the black hole of smog and pollution and taking a deep fresh breath. Maybe this all needed to happen to give our planet a break so we can make adjustments to stop destroying our planet moving forward. I feel like this has shaken everyone to their core and given our souls a jolt to awaken us. We all have the opportunity to get a grasp on who we are, who we want to be and come out of this sprinting, not limping. I am sending you all much love, good vibes and a big virtual hug. Thanks for reading and God bless the Real Housewives of New York for providing a laugh every week.